It�s Tuesday
It�s Tuesday
& I�ve been interviewing adoption agencies for my dog: A 35 pound black lab & corgi mix that looks & acts a lot like a puppy
& I still wonder how her parent�s managed it - a black lab is a full sized dog � they can stand 3 feet tall. a corgi has 3 inch legs � they�re quite low to the ground
& I still wonder
& It�s Tuesday & she�s been sleeping in the house or sitting on a leash for 14 hours a day �She�s been too often bounced around between friends & relatives during week & month long business trips�
& that is no life for anyone �especially someone who doesn�t understand why�
& It�s Tuesday & 2 months ago I picked her up
gently held her in my arms & stepped onto a scale
She had gained ten pounds & I gained the realization she was getting fat & needed a better home
& It�s Tuesday & I�ve found an adoption agency
a �no-kill� place because I haven�t been able to give her what she needs & dying�is not what she needs�
It�s Tuesday & I�m folding a blanket & I�m filling Tupperware w/ dog food & the dog food is she doesn�t feel the stress of a changed diet right away& the blanket is so she can
smell home�while she waits
Tuesday & I�m walking her through the woods - Down the same path she�s walked for the past three years & I�m letting he swim in the lake
When I brought her home from the pound she was terrified of water - she was terrified of everything & she would cower if I yelled from the other room & I knew that once
some thing bad must have happened to her & now she�s a great swimmer & now she�s really trusting & that used to feel really
good
& now it doesn�t�cause family members shouldn�t be disposable
Tuesday & last week I signed a lease for a city apartment - a move that�s finally making me do this & I�m giving her a bath & if she�s clean & smelling a little less like a pond - someone might adopt her sooner
Tuesday & I�m driving w/ her beside me & I�m gonna pay the adoption fee for whoever wants her first!
& It�s Tuesday & I�m putting her on a leash & I�m opening the door & I�m walking her in & I�m kneeling beside her & I�m patting her head & I�m scratching her neck & I�m handing her over & I�m sayinggoodbye & I�m driving home & I�m alone & I�m waving
at age 4
sobbing
at the terminal window
�COME BACK DADDY�
�Come Back daddy�
�come back
daddy�
(On a Tuesday)
